A Site to show, what's in the mind of Ashlee. . . and to show, my views. . .
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Published on September 17, 2004 By Ashlee Ryder In Blogging
Since you all feel like you know me, and you know that I'm a "liar" I will just admit what you want to hear. Who knows, maybe it will make thinks better?

Emma Leigh, Shawn and Alysia, were made up. My life, my Christianity, and whatever else you'd like to put in here, is all a lie. Everything is a lie. All of it. The only thing true about me, is that I am with Aric. I have been with Aric for 3 years, a steady 3 years. I'm not 16. I'm 18. Aric and I are already married, I'm 6 months pregnant. I'll be turning 19 in a few weeks, and when I do, it will be Aric and my 1-year anniversary. I'm going to college in a year, majoring in Elementary Education. My real name is Ashlee Allen. I live in Lima, Ohio, with my husband, our 2-year-old daughter Alyssa and our dog.

Bridget is real. She is very real. Read her articles, and don't think of her as being me, because she is in no way me. She may be like me in the sense, that she and I are so close that we act alike sometimes, but she is not me. She is an awesome person with great abilities to change the world like the One Girl Revolution like I once said I'd like to be.

People are so smart ya know... cause you all just seem to "know" everything *laughs hysterically because she realizes how stupid that sounds considering you don't* I know this probably won't mean to much to you, considering I'm a "liar" and all, but I am going to cut back on writing on here, mainly because it's too hard to chase Alyssa around the house, keep it clean, and it will also be a million times harder in 3 months when the new baby comes.

Judge me all you want though. I don't regret having Alyssa when I was 16, and I don't regret getting married so young. I'm really happy with my family. And I'm happy with who I am. Sometimes, it's just a little bit more fun to be someone else for a while. But now, I think it's time to be me. I guess I should tell you the truths about me, and if you choose to read my articles in the future, then that's great, but if not, it's not the end of the world. Joe User is not what keeps me alive and well. And not having certain people read my articles will not keep me up at night, this isn't the only place I write, this is a side job.

My full name is Ashlee Allen, I will have been married for a year on September 27. Which is also my birthday. Alyssa was born on October 1 2001. She's going on 3 and is getting bigger every day and it's starting to make me feel sort of old. My baby is due on December 22. We are planning to name him Aric Gregory Jr. or her Aimee Rae. I used to work for an electrician as a secretary/assistant, but I just started my maternity leave because my doctor told me a week ago at my last appointment that it would be best for me to slow down and relax the last 3 months of this pregnancy.

I am completely in love with Aric Allen. I can't imagine life not being married to him. I can't imagine life without Alyssa, and I can't think of anything that I need to make me complete. Because I already have everything I'll ever need and more.

Sorry for lying to you all, but to be completely honest, I didn't lie about Emma Leigh, Shawn and Alysia. They are real. Everything else was pretty much one big lie, other than they were my neighbors in Kentucky, but Aric, Alyssa, and myself moved last month to Ohio when Aric's parents offered to help us out if we needed it after moving in to a house here.

So, yeah, I'm sorry. No sense arguing over a bunch of lies with a bunch of people who have nothing better to do with their time. I reallly am sorry

Ashlee

Comments (Page 5)
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on Sep 19, 2004
I know, thats why I told you that you could e-mail me... Thanks

Ashlee
on Sep 19, 2004
I see what I've done to everyone and I'm not proud of it


Well you shouldn't be

~carebear~
on Sep 19, 2004
I don't hold a grudge either. Frankly, it wasn't me who was offended by most of the stuff.

I hope you're sincere, ashlee, and that you sort things out. Honestly, you shouldn't have to beat yourself up forever over this. But I would encourage you to take it and learn from it, which you seem intent on doing. I think dharma's a great person for you to talk with to sort all of this out.

You have very good writing talent, ashlee. Don't let that go to waste. Just learn to use it in a positive, not a negative way, allright?
on Sep 20, 2004
Thanks Gideon. I am really sorry for what I said.

Dharma.. e-mail me at Email

instead of the one I had you e-mail me to for Emma.

Ashlee
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