A Site to show, what's in the mind of Ashlee. . . and to show, my views. . .
Published on July 22, 2004 By Ashlee Ryder In Blogging
I saw something today. . . ticked me off.. really bad. I mean, geeze. . . You can't please anyone on here and I'm honestly thinking about leaving. Then what would they have to talk about? URGH! BACK OFF! ! If you don't like what you see, talk to me, don't friggin make a big scene about it.

Don't pretend to be all sweet to me, and then turn to someone else and talk about me behind my back!!

Writing on here used to make me happy! Now it's like eating earwax. It tastes awful and has no purpose! If you have a problem with me or something I say, come to me?! Gosh. Someone asked me if I deleted some articles a couple of days ago.. well yeah! If I just leave certain ones on, the insults and comments keep coming in. But if I delete them, then people call me a liar and still I'm wrong? Answer me this, HOW DO I MAKE YOU PEOPLE HAPPY?! Why do I care if your happy? I don't know, but I do. So If it's going to cause people problems, Then I'll stop writing about my personal life, and keep it to writing about things that "matter" and that won't get me accusations.

You want to talk about me, go ahead. I wasn't going to say anything, but then I saw a few things that made it obvious you (and you know who you are) were talking about me. Excuse me if I'm wrong. But I highly doubt I am at this point.

Just to warn you, so no one thinks I'm doing this to hide anything, I'm deleting any articles that did not pertain to something that "mattered". The plan was, to write this just to me, so I could get this off my chest, and no one would get mad. But I don't care anymore.

BACK UP OFF MY KOOLAIDE!!
Ashlee

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on Jul 22, 2004
It's not participating that makes me unhappy. Its all the accusations that I'm tired of.

I guess I could have made that line more clear, by saying "Writing on here and getting responses used to make me happy, and now its like eating earwax. It tastes awful and has no purpose."

*shrugs* All I was trying to say was, if you have a problem with me, or something I say, tell ME.

Ashlee
on Jul 22, 2004
Hey... I'm bummed that you deleted the article "Is singing a hard job" I hope I didnt come off like I was mad or like I was "Yelling" I just wanted to try and give some insight into how non-glamourous being a musician can be, and I was really hoping that it would spark some interesting conversation.

Sorry you're bummin out.

Casey
on Jul 22, 2004
All I was trying to say was, if you have a problem with me, or something I say, tell ME.


Okay....I'm saying that I have a SERIOUS problem with you, and I'm pretty sure you know why. Are you denying you did what we believe you did, or are you admitting it?
on Jul 22, 2004
I'm bummed that you deleted the article "Is singing a hard job" I hope I didnt come off like I was mad or like I was "Yelling" I just wanted to try and give some insight into how non-glamourous being a musician can be, and I was really hoping that it would spark some interesting conversation.


This had nothing to do with you at all. I actually didn't think about saving that one.I thought you made a good point with the comment you left in it. Thanks for leaving one, and I'm sorry that I deleted it. Maybe I will write another similiar to it, and you can make your point again, if you'd like to. Sorry.

Are you denying you did what we believe you did, or are you admitting it?


Denying it.

Thanks for telling me you have a problem with me.

Ashlee
on Jul 22, 2004
Are you denying you did what we believe you did, or are you admitting it?Denying it.


Then offer some proof.....name the hospital.......
on Jul 22, 2004
Appalachian Regional Healthcare

Ashlee
on Jul 22, 2004
Appalachian Regional Healthcare


Which one?
on Jul 22, 2004

Which one?  Because there are quite a few.


What post are they at? 

on Jul 22, 2004
I'm deleting any articles that did not pertain to something that "mattered".


I must have missed this before.....so you're saying that the update article on Alysia last night did not pertain to anything that "mattered"? Thank you very much......you just answered any question I might have had about you and your sad, pathetic little lies. Get some professional help, and get it SOON, Ashlee, if that IS your real name!
on Jul 22, 2004
You took that and twisted my words Poetmom. . . I'm sorry you all feel this way about me.

Ashlee
on Jul 23, 2004
~notices the name of the post and hospital still hasnt been mentioned~

hmmph.

and probably never wil be...........
on Jul 23, 2004
Dude, welcome to blogger world.

You'll get over it. We all do. Blogging is just to much fun to let go of. If you visit my post, you'll notice an article I wrote entitle, "Trinitie is leaving", but did I? Nope. And if you read the comments, everyone knew I wouldn't go.

Blogging is like life, sometimes it's not as fun as it used to be, but it's worth it yo.

Blog on babe.

Trinitie
on Jul 23, 2004
Ashlee Ryder - I am not sure what is exactly going on, but I'm guessing that whatever you wrote that has others upset, was not written intending to harm anyone? Sometimes you need to look at intentions of the heart. My old Quaker Church had a minister that was very against Halloween. There was the sweetest lady, in her early nineties that spoke up with the nicest voice and talked of giving candy to the children and how she couldn't turn them away. The minister smiled at her and reassured her that if she chose to give candy out, she wouldn't be judged harshly.
Be yourself and blog.
on Jul 23, 2004
Just a thought.... My baby daughter did die. If you are making this up how does that make you feel?

Do you know that "Alysia" being sick, brought back the pain of losing my daughter, knowing what is like to have a child die?

Or don't you even care?

on Jul 23, 2004
I'm not making it up. I am not that mean of a person. I don't know how to prove to you all that I didn't make it up, and so therefore I am sorry. I deleted the articles, because I was tired of hearing about all this. When I said I was going to write about what "mattered" I meant the things that I started writing this blog for, which was definitely not personal things. I'm sorry if people are hurt because of my so called "lies".

I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry. But I'm not lying to you.

Ashlee
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