I suck. I really suck. I'm sitting here, listening to two songs. And I've come to the realization, I suck. I just really suck. I went out for dinner with my mom and I said that our waiter could have a seat and eat with us because I thought he was cute. So my Mom TOLD HIM. I swear I had to have turned 9 shades of red in like 2 seconds. I know this really doesn't "matter" but I felt like writing about it, so screw it. It's my blog, I'll write about what I want to write about, you are the one wi...

"I've got it all, but I feel so deprived I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing And why can't I let it go There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm... Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door Onto the next...

I went to a church party tonight. It was actually a picnic. I had went to the restroom and on my way back, someone stopped me and said, "Ashlee, I was sitting across the yard from you and I saw you, and I said to myself, she is getting to be so pretty." I wanted to cry. Little did this person know, I was feeling depressed. Which you all could have figured from my last blog. I'm just stressed; I'll get over it, eventually. Anyway, I'm in a really good mood, so I figured I should probably write...

Today, could be your last. Tomorrow could be your last. Let's face it, any day could be our last day. Any minute could be out last minute. Any moment that you spend with someone, could be the last moment you ever spend with them. What would you do if you knew it would be the last time you see them? How would you say goodbye? Would you make up for anything you have said or done that was out of place in the past? Who knows what could happen. I learned the hard way, never to say anything you d...

By a technicallity, I am strong. But not in all instances. Not in all cases, not in all situations. I am not strong. But God is. God is so strong, so powerful, but he still provides for the birds. The birds don't have to worry about having food, or about where they are going to live, because God cares for them. God even cares for a little flower in the same way as the bird. Now if you think about it, birds and flowers were put on the earth as an enjoyment for us, humans. So, don't you think t...

How Do I Count The Ways That I Need You? I can't. Because I don't need you. Or so i tell myself. I'm going under, and I'm sinking fast, who can be my tourniquet and save me from my past? I'm searching and i'm seeking, but nothing can i find. Who will save me.. no one.. no one can save me from myself... I need help.. I need a tourniquet... my last hope of being saved.. God is the only Tourniquet that can help me... God is my tourniquet, my last hope...

I'm really not motivated today.. there is so much that I want to say, but everytime I think I am getting some where with this, my mind gets blocked. My niece is graduating tonight and so I have an hour or so to figure this out. I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said, and I don't know what to write, that hasn't already been read. Everytime I think about Jesus, I find myself so confused. How could someone who was in Heaven with God, want to leave his home and come here to save a...

I stand alone on my own two feet. I am everything that I need to be. I am trying to be, everything that God needs me to be. And so, if that means that i have to forget about my so called "Friends" because they don't want to have anything to do with me because of my point of view, then so be it, I am a one girl revolution. I can make a change that will be seen around the world. I'm cocky, but its a good cocky. . . cause if I wasn't this cocky, I probably wouldn't be where I am today. . . I hav...

When i looked up the word, friend, i found tons of responds. But none were what i was looking for. None of the 24 were what i needed to write this. So i thought, "Ashlee, make up your own!" so thats what i did. Friend- - A person who makes life a little bit easier for you; someone who can help you carry your load of burden. Now if you place a "best" before my definition of friend, you'd probably have a super person. We all need a super person. Agree? Life would be a lot easier than it...

I heard a song today. . . and after hearing that song it made me wonder. . . am I healed? I really never questioned it before, until today. By Christ's wounds, anyone can be healed. . . I also heard another song. . . this one made me think harder. . . Why in the world, after hearing a song like that, would anyone want to be unsaved?!?!? it was a crazy thought. . . Then i realized. . . I don't think i'm saved. . . I hate that feeling. . . you know the feeling, its a feeling like you think or s...