This is probably the article that a lot of Joeusers have been waiting for. I can't say I blame you. I mean, goodness, look what I've done. I've caused so much chaotic shit on here, that its not even funny. I never meant for anyone to get hurt, and now looking back, I should have seen that eventually someone would get hurt. Unfortunately, I was blinded by my "fun". Now it's beginning to make sense that I'm a bitch. I feel bad for Alyssa and the new baby. It would have to suck pretty badly ...

Since you all feel like you know me, and you know that I'm a "liar" I will just admit what you want to hear. Who knows, maybe it will make thinks better? Emma Leigh, Shawn and Alysia, were made up. My life, my Christianity, and whatever else you'd like to put in here, is all a lie. Everything is a lie. All of it. The only thing true about me, is that I am with Aric. I have been with Aric for 3 years, a steady 3 years. I'm not 16. I'm 18. Aric and I are already married, I'm 6 months pregna...

So, when some of you read my last article, you jumped to some conclusions. Why am I not surprised at this???? What's new right? You never seem to be happy unless your accusing someone of something. So you know what? Go right ahead. Accuse me of whatever your heart desires. I don't have any reason to have to explain myself to you. The only authority that I need to know is okay with everything is God. Not you and not anyone else. So, if you have a problem with it, you'll just have to get over i...

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!!!! Actually, I was just moving in with my boyfriend Aric, but he asked me to marry him about a week ago, soooooo I'm engaged!! I wanted to wait to write about it ,because I hadn't been able to get a hold of Brandon, but I did talk to him, and everythings cool. so, I'm so freakin excited!! We're getting married on the 4th of July in 2006. We want to have a long engagment considering I'm still 16 and all. But anyways, I can't really talk long cause I was just getting read...

Since the last time I've written... so much has happened.. For one, I'm blonde now. I actually got into my top college, and so next fall I'll be going there!!! There's a lot more that I need to talk about, but I don't want to say some of it on here quite yet. I need to talk to someone first, (Brandon)....................... Anyways. . . I'm moving in with my friend Aric. . . I'm getting a new car. It's a Arrival Blue Metallic 2004 Cavalier LS Coupe. . . It's so pretty. Hmm... I've missed J...

I got my school shoes today, they are so cute! They are white K*Swiss, with pink on them. Awe they are so cute. Anyways, I miss my friends. A Lot. I would talk to Apdelong, but I don't have him on my list... so.. Apdelong, if you are reading this, I want to add you to my MSN list, but I don't know your thingy. We began to plan my grandparents 50 wedding anniversary today. We are having them a luau, because they never got to have a honeymoon. It is crazy. I'm in charge of Leis, Invitation...

I suck. I really suck. I'm sitting here, listening to two songs. And I've come to the realization, I suck. I just really suck. I went out for dinner with my mom and I said that our waiter could have a seat and eat with us because I thought he was cute. So my Mom TOLD HIM. I swear I had to have turned 9 shades of red in like 2 seconds. I know this really doesn't "matter" but I felt like writing about it, so screw it. It's my blog, I'll write about what I want to write about, you are the one wi...

"I've got it all, but I feel so deprived I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing And why can't I let it go There's gotta be more to life... Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me Cause the more that I'm... Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door Onto the next...

I saw something today. . . ticked me off.. really bad. I mean, geeze. . . You can't please anyone on here and I'm honestly thinking about leaving. Then what would they have to talk about? URGH! BACK OFF! ! If you don't like what you see, talk to me, don't friggin make a big scene about it. Don't pretend to be all sweet to me, and then turn to someone else and talk about me behind my back!! Writing on here used to make me happy! Now it's like eating earwax. It tastes awful and has no p...

Let me get a few things off my chest. I am not who I say I am. I am Ashlee, but not the Ashlee I have said I am. I am 15. . . not 24. I don't have a boyfriend and I have no want for one. I just like to write. I feel terrible because of how I deceived all of you. I probably won't write at all now. I don't want to upset anyone by continuing to write. If you would like me to keep writing, I will. I am sorry though. I just felt the need to get it out that I am 15. thanks.

Here is a conversation I had with my best friend's boyfriend today, He's Andy and I'm Strawberry Wine. Andy (11:48 AM) : why do u need a male so bad? u that horny lol jking Strawberry Wine (11:48 AM) : hey! thats not funny Strawberry Wine (11:49 AM) : having someone makes me feel special and like i matter to some one. . . it has nothing to do with being horny Andy (11:51 AM) : so why do u think bridge loves haveing me? Strawberry Wine (11:51 AM) : because, because your you S...

I went to a church party tonight. It was actually a picnic. I had went to the restroom and on my way back, someone stopped me and said, "Ashlee, I was sitting across the yard from you and I saw you, and I said to myself, she is getting to be so pretty." I wanted to cry. Little did this person know, I was feeling depressed. Which you all could have figured from my last blog. I'm just stressed; I'll get over it, eventually. Anyway, I'm in a really good mood, so I figured I should probably write...

Sorry for not writing the past week. I've just been so busy. I would like to get this out, If you think about it, please go to my cousins new blog and check it out. She's my best friend and I thought it might be nice of me to post her site address on here Link um... I have no idea what to write. . . nothing at all. As I sit here, my mind begins to wonder. I should be working on my new book. I should be doing this, I should be doing that, well. . . I haven't been doing the things I sho...

Today, I need inspiration. BADLY! It seems that every where I look, I'm being told to stop my talking about God, that I need to stop trying to "make the world see my point of view" I'm not making anyone do anything. I'm also being told that I was bragging? WHERE DID THAT COME FROM?! Oh well, I need to breathe. I'm very frustrated with the whole thing and I want to quit writing, but I won't just yet. I feel there are still a few things I need to get off my chest before I give up. I am not one ...

I watched my favorite movie over and over and over yesterday and today, and I have this one song running through my head. in this song the guy, Jack, sang "I ain't gettin' any younger, and before my dyin' day I want space, not just air. Let them laugh in my face I don't care." I could watch that movie for hours and I wouldn't get bored. The only problem is, every time I watch it, I want to get out of this busy town, and go somewhere, that I can be free to run through a field of daisies. I kno...